Is it Spring Yet?

So this weekend was so, so.  I could have done much better but I didn't do horrible either.  Saturday morning we got up and hit the gym.  I did a great workout and burned a little over 700 calories according to my Polar HRM.  We went back home and showered and went grocery shopping.  I had some chobani yogurt for breakfast before the gym and the hubby wanted to stop at Dunkin Donuts for coffee and a little something afterwards so we split 1 order of hashbrowns and a sausage, egg and cheese wrap.  That was pretty much all I had til early evening.  I was hungry but didn't know what for and we were going out with friends later in the night.  So my first downfall was not eating proper meals earlier in the day.  I had some hummus and pita bread and I had a few chips.  We went out to dinner and I only ate about 1/2 of my turkey wrap and 1/2 my fries.   I also had 3 beers.  So overall I would say Saturday sucked but could have been a lot worse.

Then there's Sunday....the hubby was heading down to visit friends overnight and see his mother.  So when I got up, the first thing I did was start making chocolate chip cookies for him to bring to his friends and mother.  I was not hungry and I think that's because I was because of the food/beer I had the night before.  So I had some coffee and baked his cookies.  I did have a cookie just to test, then I made him breakfast and he was on his way out.  I decided to clean the house and by lunchtime I was starting to get hungry so I had some banana chips and the other 1/2 of my turkey wrap.  I was going to my parents for dinner and it seems when I go there I end up in trouble.  So they know I am working on loosing weight and I am watching what I am eating.  So you would think they would be nice about it and not keep stocking all my biggest temptations.  WRONG!!!

So for the past few months everytime I go to my parents they have a huge bowl of reeses peanutbutter cups sitting there in front of me.  That bowl never seems to be empty and it just calls me.  I tend to cave and I hate it.  I am not a huge chocolate person but those things are just like crack!  So anyways....I get there Sunday and there's the candy dish full and then my mother (who by the way is watching what she is eating) says oh I bought that lemon bundt cake on the table for you.  I said for ME?  She say yes....I am starting to think she is trying to sabatoge me and it's getting OLD!  I absolutely LOVE LEMON STUFF!  It's my all time favorite and mind you this cake is HUGE!!!  So I tell her I will take some of it home for us b/c my hubby doesn't have a big sweet tooth.  So I when I am getting ready to leave I take half of it and she tells me it's not enough.  I said oh yes it is!  My mother then proceeds to tell me how she isn't eating that stuff and doesn't want it in the house!  At this point I am ready to scream!!  I tell her oh well, either am I and 1/2 a cake is enough for 2 of us....knowing  I will most likely eat it.  Why does she do this?  My father for the most part has learned to stop buying all my favorites but now my mother who is also overweight (blamed on my birth and my brothers) and has some bad eating issues is constantly buying food I don't eat anymore for me and she gets very mad/offended when I reject it.  So half the time I end up taking it home with me just so I don't have to hear her complain b/c I don't want it.  Sometimes I throw it out but other times I end up eating it.  What can I do?  I want to stop going there but I know that wouldn't go over well either.  I go 2 times a week for dinner and those 2 days usually are high calorie days.  I just don't know what to do. 
Over the past few years I have cut out processed foods and junk food.   I still eat it but not that often and when I purchase it, I try to do it in small quantities so once it's gone it's not sitting there tempting me to eat more of it.  I don't buy cakes, cookies, chips etc....it's very rare.  So if I don't buy it and my mother knows this then why does she turn around and buy it for me?  I don't like it!  I am rambling on but I guess I am trying to figure it out in my head.

So needless to say Sunday went downhill pretty fast.  I need to count calories on the weekend but I find it to be hard.  No more excuses.  So far so good this week.  It's Tuesday, tomorrow I go to my parents. 

Anyways I did some yoga this morning and I am off to the gym tonight.  I had a chobani for breakfast with a slice of toast and some fresh strawberries a little bit ago.  I don't know what's on the menu for lunch today.  Not sure what I am in the mood for. 

I am curious to know if anyone has any similar issues with their parents?  I would be interested in knowing how you resist or how you deal with the situation.  I know I need to get stronger when I am there.

Anyways have a great day!!

Happy Friday!!!!

Well it's Friday, made it through another week.  This week my weight has been going up and down.  However I am still lower than I have been so I will take it. =)  I know it's not all about weight and I know I feel good.  I got in 2 yoga workouts this week and 2 weight workouts.  I also did 3 hour long workouts at the gym on the elliptical or treadmill.  So I feel accomplished and I hope I can finally shed some more inches and pounds. 

I had a few days where the food wasn't terrific...meaning it was pretty high in sodium because it was processed.  Plus a few days were fast food that I never have.  I went out for a quick lunch with my father and we went to Burger King one day.  I haven't been to one of those places in years.  Let me just tell you I got a whopper jr. and fries and they didn't taste as good as I thought they would.  That tells me I am growing and definitely changing.  I use to go crazy for fries at fast food places but they were just ok.  Nothing special about them and the whopper wasn't what I thought it would be.  It definitely wasn't worth 780 calories but it didn't ruin my day.  I worked out extra hard and I had a healthier dinner.  I am just thinking the sodium is what is bringing my weight up a bit and the fact that it's that time of the month.  I know TMI.  But I am thinking those 2 things are factors with my weigh in this morning. 

On a healthier note is anyone else in love with Chobani yogurt?  That stuff is just so delish!  I have been buying the plain for a long time and adding my own stuff for breakfast.  Recently I have been exploring and trying their other flavors and let me tell you I am in LOVE!  Chobani is awesome and really good for you.  I really like the mango and strawberry banana.  However I do think adding my own fruit is healthier and I will probably still do that most of the time but for a nice quick snack I think I will keep flavors on hand.  Oh and I absolutely without a doubt love the Chobani Champions honey-nana flavor.  Let me just say it's heaven.  Add a little dab of peanut butter to that and it is just so delish yet pretty darn healthy.  I am sure I am not the only one.

So the weekend is upon me and that's when I tend to undo all the hard work I did during the week.  I do so much better with exercise and eating when I am on a schedule.  I am going to try my hardest to stay really focused this weekend and eat healthy.  That is my goal.  To not come out of this weekend with a gain.  Weekends are SOOO Hard!!!  We don't have much planned so it should be interesting.  My husband and I always get up Saturday morning and hit the gym first thing so that is a good start but I find Sundays are my hardest day.  I am going to be strong.  I can do it.  I know I can.  I have to do it.  If I ever want to loose weight and feel more comfortable in my own skin I must do it.  There's no choice.  It's time to move.  I have lost almost 45 lbs and I was happy with that but I need to loose a lot more...I am thinking about 100 more lbs I have to go.  It's a lot but I feel if I can just get out of this decade of numbers that I have spent the past year in I will be that much closer.  I have sat still long enough.  I want to say bye bye to all this extra fat and hello to a happy, healthier me!

So here's to a great weekend filled with lots of focus and healthiness.  I can do it and I will.  I will report back early next week with how it went. 

Anyone have any healthy food they can't live without?  Having any struggles with your weight loss, I would love to hear. 

It's been SUPER CRAZY BUSY!!

Yup, I haven't been around. I have been so busy with work and I'm so tired by the time I get home from the gym at night and after cooking dinner I just haven't had the energy to write. Wow talk about a long run on sentence. Haha. Oh well. I don't want to stop writing, I think it keeps me accountable so I am trying to fit in a little today before the weekend gets here.

I am still steady on the scale but I have lost a few inches here and there since the last time I measured which I believe was last month. That gave me some hope. At least something is changing. With all this mega exercise I am doing. =) My thighs are getting a tad smaller which is nice. I can't seem to whittle my waist away at all though so that is a bit disappointing. I have started drinking my green tea more regularly and I am trying to drink a glass of milk at night. Of course it's got chocolate in it b/c even as a baby you couldn't get me to drink me. Heck, I also use to hate chocolate too. It's only been recently since I actually want it a little here and there. It has to be good chocolate though. =) So those are a few new things I am trying!

So this week I got braces on my teeth! Yup, BRACES! So maybe this can cause me to loose a bit of weight. Haha, what a thing to do to loose weight. =) However, I am learning that there is definitely some things I just can't seem to eat with braces on or it's so much work, it's not worth it. Also, I have found myself saying ahh I don't feel like cleaning my teeth again or it's too much work to clean them that I don't wanna eat that. Ummm...maybe I have found a dieters dream! AHAHAHAHA! Yup I am not a dieter, it's a new way of life for me. Healthy and Happy. Non-processed goods go into me 90% of the time. That's what this is about. Even if I stay fat at least most of the time it's healthy, wholesome food I am eatting and not all that processed/boxed stuff. I have noticed in the past year that my skin is getting better and my nails stronger....it's great! I also have a lot more energy...well I used to before I just seem to become so busy to do anything! Oh well.

So that's what's new with me. Work is so busy right now and frustrating that I can't wait for the next 2 weeks to go by, at which time I am hoping things will calm down a bit. We shall see. This weekend I have a birthday party to go to. I don't plan on eating cake, most of the time it's too sweet anyways. Plus w/ my new grill I doubt I will eat too much of anything b/c it might be stuck in my teeth. AHAHA. Other than that not much going on. Plan on hitting the gym in the morning tomorrow and maybe the farmers market afterwards and then home for the day to clean it. Hubby wants to work on staining the deck, so maybe I will help. It should be pretty quiet.

So here's hoping I don't gain any weight this weekend. I hope to keep my head on straight and stay focused! WOOHOO!

Happy Friday!

Slow going

Things are going for me ok right now. This past weekend wasn't too bad. I didn't do much and I think that helped but also just put me in a funk. I am down a bit on the scale this week and I am hoping to get down some more next week and then I might be able to breathe and feel like I am out of the woods and finally going to see some new numbers on the scale.

This week so far has been slow and crazy! Work is driving me insane, I am tired of drama and stuff and I just wish it would stop. Oh well...I suppose it's everywheres. It was a very long Monday. My eating however was awesome! So that is great to report plus I did the gym in the evening and workout in the morning. I did a workout this morning and plan on going to the gym right after work again. However my eating hasn't been great. Ok the eating has been fine but I had a dentist appt. this morning and I was there a lot longer than expected so I ran to McD's to pick up lunch before I headed back to work and I grabbed a southwest salad w/ grilled chicken (didn't use all the dressing either) but I decided to try the new frappes they have. Urrr...the calories I found out where 550 when I got to a computer to enter it. YIKES! So that has pretty much thrown off my eating for the day. It's made me use a lot of calories....I should have known and i probably did. So dinner I am suppose to be making Oyakadon (spelling??) It's a japanese dish with chicken, egg, onion and rice. So overall it's not a unhealthy dish as long as I don't go nuts with the rice. =) I can do that I think.

I am going out Friday to see some friends that live in M.A.! It's been since last summer/fall I have seen them. i can't wait. I miss hanging out with them. We use to work together and we got along great and did things all the time but my husband and I were building a home and it was in the other direction so I needed to find a new job. They are only about 50 minutes away but it feels like a long way when trying to make plans after work and such. So Friday we are going out for dinner and drinks. WOOHOO!! So my plan is to be super good all week so I can enjoy a few drinks. Umm....so far I consider today a bust! =( I am just afraid I am going to say screw it and ruin my entire week. I keep telling myself I am doing ok. I just need to stay focused and aware of what I am doing. I can't give in.

I am going to England and Ireland and I would like to be smaller for this trip. I have had plenty of time and I have been at this weight since late last summer or early winter....I haven't dropped and it's time to drop it. I don't want to stay here and therefore it's time to stay focused and keep doing what I do. Right? RIGHT!!!

So I wanted to write today to get what is going in my head out there. It is a good way for me to release my thoughts. I don't know if my ramblings make sense but hopefully I will get better. I just have so many thoughts going at once that I tend to jump back and forth and all over the place. AAHH!!!

So I am happy that the sun is shining today, I have no cavities and it's been quiet at work. Those are good things today. Oh and I have about 10 minutes left. =) So here's to a good rest of the week. I can do this, I can be strong!!!

Trying to get in the groove of things...

I want to do a blog because I think it will help me stay accountable and keep me focused and on the right track. However it seems that I don't have time to do this. I start it and then don't continue. I read other blogs all the time and they inspire me and give me motivation and great ideas on how to reach my goals so I want to help others as well.

I have been having a problem staying focused with my weight loss. I am not gaining but I am not loosing. I have been working out more than ever but I am still not budging on the scale. The hubby says it's because I am gaining muscle, which is great but come on I used to just do 30 minutes on the elliptical 5 - 6 times a week and now I do that plus I go to the gym and do another 40-60 minutes on an elliptical and then I do strength training for another 20 minutes. I use a HRM and I average around 4000 calories burned a week so what gives??? I think my weekends are doing me in. I don't go crazy but we eat out and have a few drinks here and there and a few treats. I think the calories are a lot worse than I think. I need to get things back on track and I need to stop letting myself have all these little treats. I am obviously giving myself too many!

So I would love to loose another 20 lbs before September because that is when we are going on our trip to England and Ireland and I would love to have 55 lbs total gone. I would feel like I am accomplishing something again. That gives me a little over two months and it should be doable right? I sure hope so.

I hope to return here soon and make this a regular thing. Heres to the start of a blog that will keep me accountable and on track. I can do this!

New to blogging, my weight loss journey

I am new to this blogging but I thought it would be a good spot to record how I feel daily and how my weight loss process has gone. I have been dieting forever and it never gets me anywheres. I finally am learning to change my way of life and not calling it a diet anymore. For a year now I have learned how to eat better and how to exercise. However I still have a long way to go. I have finally lost 20lbs and I feel great, I am down 1 pant size and I have hope that I can loose 20 more and then some. It took me almost a year to go down 20lbs but I have been putting healthier actions into my everyday life. So I am going to try to write a blog on how I am doing and how I feel. I hope to get subscribers that will give me their inputs on what has worked for them also. I have a lot of weight to loose and I hope to be very close to my goal by the end of this year.



I am a 26 year old female and I would like to start a family in the next few years. I also want to go on a real vacation and not be so worried about how I look in shorts or a bathing suit. I work in accounting and human resources and I do web designing on the side when I have time. I enjoy spending time with friends and family. I love the sunshine and I love to plant flowers in the spring and fall. I enjoy reading a good book if I have time and love to shop. I like to do a lot of things but right now I feel like my weight gets in my way.



Well, I guess this is all I have time for now, but I am on a journey and it doesn't end this time. There is no stopping and starting over in a week, month, year when I fail for a day. If I fail one day I just get right back up and keep going the next. There is no stopping not for me!