It's been a long time

I want to blog badly yet I get caught up in my life and sidetracked by everything I don't have the time or energy to do it. So I am back and I hope to get better. I need the support to loose weight and I know blogging can help me a lot if I just do it.

So it's been a while and I have been very busy. I can't believe the summer is almost over with and our trip to London and Ireland is in just 19 more days! AAHHH!!! So needless to say I have only lost a few pounds. I have been sick and then my elliptical at home broke and then too busy to go to the gym so it seems that working out has been taking a backseat and I need to fix that. My at home elliptical is fixed now and I have no excuse other than yesterday and today I have a severe sore throat. AAAHHH! So I am nursing that and hope to make it to the gym tomorrow and get back on my normal workout routine by next week. That would mean working out for 30 minutes in the morning on the elliptical at least 3 days a week and going to the gym at least 4 days and doing 45-50 minutes on the elliptical and weights. So I hope to get back there to loose a few more pounds before the big trip. The good news with all this is I haven't gained weight. I have managed to keep it off and loose a couple more pounds.

We went to the beach this past weekend and stayed with friends and enjoyed their beach cabana. It was very nice. I also decided to go purchase a bathingsuit and I actually wore it. I haven't worn one in probably close to 10 years! I decided I didn't want to be left out and I did it. I was very worried and scared but all that matters is I DID IT! I do hope to loose a lot more. I say I have about 100 lbs til I hit a weight I think I will be happy with. So I do hope to get there. I have probably only lost about 10 lbs in the past year and I really hope I can move this weight. The good news is since joining the gym I have lost inches and I notice a difference and I have gained muscle so maybe that's why I haven't been dropping weight.

Who knows! So I haven't given up. I have just been busy and distracted. I hope to start blogging more as things start to settle down. Hopefully I will get back into my routine. I am figuring by the time I get into my routine it will be time for our trip. Oye! Haha.

Thank you for hanging in there with me, I appreciate it. Here's to a better week starting tomorrow!!

It's been SUPER CRAZY BUSY!!

Yup, I haven't been around. I have been so busy with work and I'm so tired by the time I get home from the gym at night and after cooking dinner I just haven't had the energy to write. Wow talk about a long run on sentence. Haha. Oh well. I don't want to stop writing, I think it keeps me accountable so I am trying to fit in a little today before the weekend gets here.

I am still steady on the scale but I have lost a few inches here and there since the last time I measured which I believe was last month. That gave me some hope. At least something is changing. With all this mega exercise I am doing. =) My thighs are getting a tad smaller which is nice. I can't seem to whittle my waist away at all though so that is a bit disappointing. I have started drinking my green tea more regularly and I am trying to drink a glass of milk at night. Of course it's got chocolate in it b/c even as a baby you couldn't get me to drink me. Heck, I also use to hate chocolate too. It's only been recently since I actually want it a little here and there. It has to be good chocolate though. =) So those are a few new things I am trying!

So this week I got braces on my teeth! Yup, BRACES! So maybe this can cause me to loose a bit of weight. Haha, what a thing to do to loose weight. =) However, I am learning that there is definitely some things I just can't seem to eat with braces on or it's so much work, it's not worth it. Also, I have found myself saying ahh I don't feel like cleaning my teeth again or it's too much work to clean them that I don't wanna eat that. Ummm...maybe I have found a dieters dream! AHAHAHAHA! Yup I am not a dieter, it's a new way of life for me. Healthy and Happy. Non-processed goods go into me 90% of the time. That's what this is about. Even if I stay fat at least most of the time it's healthy, wholesome food I am eatting and not all that processed/boxed stuff. I have noticed in the past year that my skin is getting better and my nails stronger....it's great! I also have a lot more energy...well I used to before I just seem to become so busy to do anything! Oh well.

So that's what's new with me. Work is so busy right now and frustrating that I can't wait for the next 2 weeks to go by, at which time I am hoping things will calm down a bit. We shall see. This weekend I have a birthday party to go to. I don't plan on eating cake, most of the time it's too sweet anyways. Plus w/ my new grill I doubt I will eat too much of anything b/c it might be stuck in my teeth. AHAHA. Other than that not much going on. Plan on hitting the gym in the morning tomorrow and maybe the farmers market afterwards and then home for the day to clean it. Hubby wants to work on staining the deck, so maybe I will help. It should be pretty quiet.

So here's hoping I don't gain any weight this weekend. I hope to keep my head on straight and stay focused! WOOHOO!

Happy Friday!

Slow going

Things are going for me ok right now. This past weekend wasn't too bad. I didn't do much and I think that helped but also just put me in a funk. I am down a bit on the scale this week and I am hoping to get down some more next week and then I might be able to breathe and feel like I am out of the woods and finally going to see some new numbers on the scale.

This week so far has been slow and crazy! Work is driving me insane, I am tired of drama and stuff and I just wish it would stop. Oh well...I suppose it's everywheres. It was a very long Monday. My eating however was awesome! So that is great to report plus I did the gym in the evening and workout in the morning. I did a workout this morning and plan on going to the gym right after work again. However my eating hasn't been great. Ok the eating has been fine but I had a dentist appt. this morning and I was there a lot longer than expected so I ran to McD's to pick up lunch before I headed back to work and I grabbed a southwest salad w/ grilled chicken (didn't use all the dressing either) but I decided to try the new frappes they have. Urrr...the calories I found out where 550 when I got to a computer to enter it. YIKES! So that has pretty much thrown off my eating for the day. It's made me use a lot of calories....I should have known and i probably did. So dinner I am suppose to be making Oyakadon (spelling??) It's a japanese dish with chicken, egg, onion and rice. So overall it's not a unhealthy dish as long as I don't go nuts with the rice. =) I can do that I think.

I am going out Friday to see some friends that live in M.A.! It's been since last summer/fall I have seen them. i can't wait. I miss hanging out with them. We use to work together and we got along great and did things all the time but my husband and I were building a home and it was in the other direction so I needed to find a new job. They are only about 50 minutes away but it feels like a long way when trying to make plans after work and such. So Friday we are going out for dinner and drinks. WOOHOO!! So my plan is to be super good all week so I can enjoy a few drinks. Umm....so far I consider today a bust! =( I am just afraid I am going to say screw it and ruin my entire week. I keep telling myself I am doing ok. I just need to stay focused and aware of what I am doing. I can't give in.

I am going to England and Ireland and I would like to be smaller for this trip. I have had plenty of time and I have been at this weight since late last summer or early winter....I haven't dropped and it's time to drop it. I don't want to stay here and therefore it's time to stay focused and keep doing what I do. Right? RIGHT!!!

So I wanted to write today to get what is going in my head out there. It is a good way for me to release my thoughts. I don't know if my ramblings make sense but hopefully I will get better. I just have so many thoughts going at once that I tend to jump back and forth and all over the place. AAHH!!!

So I am happy that the sun is shining today, I have no cavities and it's been quiet at work. Those are good things today. Oh and I have about 10 minutes left. =) So here's to a good rest of the week. I can do this, I can be strong!!!

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!

Happy Friday! WOOHOO! I am so happy this week is done with. For some reason it just seemed never ending and I couldn't get with it. Now the weekend is finally here and my plan is to stay focused and stay on track.

I must say yesterday was bad day. I had carbs calling me all day. I have been eating less carbs just because it seems that I get in these carb routines and all I want are them so I have been cutting back on them which doesn't affect me and I am fine without them. However I guess my body says otherwise. Yesterday I had to do an errand before lunch so I ran to the grocery store after and grabbed a turkey, bacon with roasted red pepper sandwich on oat bread and then I saw them. Ultimate cinnamon buns! I used to love them! They are SOOOOOOOO BAD! I grabbed a box. I said I would eat just 1/2 of one. Well I ate 1/2 the sandwich and 1/2 a cinnamon bun but then it was still calling me so I ate the other half. Then at work I had 2 mini chocolate donuts and some maple and brown sugar shredded wheat cereal I had. OMG! I couldn't stop. So I went to the gym and did 50 minutes on the elliptical and I did different weight machines for around 20 minutes. I also did 30 minutes on the elliptical in the morning. I did 4 miles at the gym but the one at home doesn't tell me. I wore my HRM and I had a total of a little over 900 calories burnt yesterday soooooo.....I feel HORRIBLE with the way I ate but I did burn a lot. So I tried making up for it at dinner, I made zucchini spaghetti with tomato sauce. We had meatballs w/ it b/c that is what the hubby wanted. I also added peppers, mushrooms, onions, and asparagus. Well I wanted more so I had some japanese crackers and then some banana and pineapple softserve. I logged in my calories for the day and I was over 2000, I was so annoyed I just went to bed. If I stopped having days like that I would be fine. I would be where I want to be weight wise. These are the things I need to work on.

I have come a long way over the years, I no longer drink soda (maybe once a month) and I don't drink much alcohol either. My main drinks are water, tea and coffee. I only put 1 tblsp. of creamer in my huge cup of coffee now also. I eat a lot more veggies and fruits and not much processed food anymore. I know overall I am eating so much better than I use to and I am a whole lot more active. So I know I am doing good, even if the weight isn't budging. I just need to stop having really bad days and stick with it.

My goal this weekend is to not have any beer or other forms of liquid calories and to choose a decent meal at the restuarant tonight. Also, hit the gym tomorrow morning and Sunday if we aren't busy in the morning. I need to stay focused on what I am eating and not pick and snack a lot! Those are my weekend goals. I can do it! I should be able to do it. Here's hoping I do fine!

I really think writing things out is helping me a bit, it should make me accountable and if I can keep at it then I will be able to look back and be like oh yeah, that's why I didn't loose weight you moron you ate a box of cinnamon buns every week. NOT THAT I DO THAT! OH and a box would be 2240 calories! EEKKK!

Anyways here's hoping to a great and successful weekend. Healthy and focused!!!

Trying to get in the groove of things...

I want to do a blog because I think it will help me stay accountable and keep me focused and on the right track. However it seems that I don't have time to do this. I start it and then don't continue. I read other blogs all the time and they inspire me and give me motivation and great ideas on how to reach my goals so I want to help others as well.

I have been having a problem staying focused with my weight loss. I am not gaining but I am not loosing. I have been working out more than ever but I am still not budging on the scale. The hubby says it's because I am gaining muscle, which is great but come on I used to just do 30 minutes on the elliptical 5 - 6 times a week and now I do that plus I go to the gym and do another 40-60 minutes on an elliptical and then I do strength training for another 20 minutes. I use a HRM and I average around 4000 calories burned a week so what gives??? I think my weekends are doing me in. I don't go crazy but we eat out and have a few drinks here and there and a few treats. I think the calories are a lot worse than I think. I need to get things back on track and I need to stop letting myself have all these little treats. I am obviously giving myself too many!

So I would love to loose another 20 lbs before September because that is when we are going on our trip to England and Ireland and I would love to have 55 lbs total gone. I would feel like I am accomplishing something again. That gives me a little over two months and it should be doable right? I sure hope so.

I hope to return here soon and make this a regular thing. Heres to the start of a blog that will keep me accountable and on track. I can do this!

New to blogging, my weight loss journey

I am new to this blogging but I thought it would be a good spot to record how I feel daily and how my weight loss process has gone. I have been dieting forever and it never gets me anywheres. I finally am learning to change my way of life and not calling it a diet anymore. For a year now I have learned how to eat better and how to exercise. However I still have a long way to go. I have finally lost 20lbs and I feel great, I am down 1 pant size and I have hope that I can loose 20 more and then some. It took me almost a year to go down 20lbs but I have been putting healthier actions into my everyday life. So I am going to try to write a blog on how I am doing and how I feel. I hope to get subscribers that will give me their inputs on what has worked for them also. I have a lot of weight to loose and I hope to be very close to my goal by the end of this year.



I am a 26 year old female and I would like to start a family in the next few years. I also want to go on a real vacation and not be so worried about how I look in shorts or a bathing suit. I work in accounting and human resources and I do web designing on the side when I have time. I enjoy spending time with friends and family. I love the sunshine and I love to plant flowers in the spring and fall. I enjoy reading a good book if I have time and love to shop. I like to do a lot of things but right now I feel like my weight gets in my way.



Well, I guess this is all I have time for now, but I am on a journey and it doesn't end this time. There is no stopping and starting over in a week, month, year when I fail for a day. If I fail one day I just get right back up and keep going the next. There is no stopping not for me!