It's been a long time

I want to blog badly yet I get caught up in my life and sidetracked by everything I don't have the time or energy to do it. So I am back and I hope to get better. I need the support to loose weight and I know blogging can help me a lot if I just do it.

So it's been a while and I have been very busy. I can't believe the summer is almost over with and our trip to London and Ireland is in just 19 more days! AAHHH!!! So needless to say I have only lost a few pounds. I have been sick and then my elliptical at home broke and then too busy to go to the gym so it seems that working out has been taking a backseat and I need to fix that. My at home elliptical is fixed now and I have no excuse other than yesterday and today I have a severe sore throat. AAAHHH! So I am nursing that and hope to make it to the gym tomorrow and get back on my normal workout routine by next week. That would mean working out for 30 minutes in the morning on the elliptical at least 3 days a week and going to the gym at least 4 days and doing 45-50 minutes on the elliptical and weights. So I hope to get back there to loose a few more pounds before the big trip. The good news with all this is I haven't gained weight. I have managed to keep it off and loose a couple more pounds.

We went to the beach this past weekend and stayed with friends and enjoyed their beach cabana. It was very nice. I also decided to go purchase a bathingsuit and I actually wore it. I haven't worn one in probably close to 10 years! I decided I didn't want to be left out and I did it. I was very worried and scared but all that matters is I DID IT! I do hope to loose a lot more. I say I have about 100 lbs til I hit a weight I think I will be happy with. So I do hope to get there. I have probably only lost about 10 lbs in the past year and I really hope I can move this weight. The good news is since joining the gym I have lost inches and I notice a difference and I have gained muscle so maybe that's why I haven't been dropping weight.

Who knows! So I haven't given up. I have just been busy and distracted. I hope to start blogging more as things start to settle down. Hopefully I will get back into my routine. I am figuring by the time I get into my routine it will be time for our trip. Oye! Haha.

Thank you for hanging in there with me, I appreciate it. Here's to a better week starting tomorrow!!

It's been SUPER CRAZY BUSY!!

Yup, I haven't been around. I have been so busy with work and I'm so tired by the time I get home from the gym at night and after cooking dinner I just haven't had the energy to write. Wow talk about a long run on sentence. Haha. Oh well. I don't want to stop writing, I think it keeps me accountable so I am trying to fit in a little today before the weekend gets here.

I am still steady on the scale but I have lost a few inches here and there since the last time I measured which I believe was last month. That gave me some hope. At least something is changing. With all this mega exercise I am doing. =) My thighs are getting a tad smaller which is nice. I can't seem to whittle my waist away at all though so that is a bit disappointing. I have started drinking my green tea more regularly and I am trying to drink a glass of milk at night. Of course it's got chocolate in it b/c even as a baby you couldn't get me to drink me. Heck, I also use to hate chocolate too. It's only been recently since I actually want it a little here and there. It has to be good chocolate though. =) So those are a few new things I am trying!

So this week I got braces on my teeth! Yup, BRACES! So maybe this can cause me to loose a bit of weight. Haha, what a thing to do to loose weight. =) However, I am learning that there is definitely some things I just can't seem to eat with braces on or it's so much work, it's not worth it. Also, I have found myself saying ahh I don't feel like cleaning my teeth again or it's too much work to clean them that I don't wanna eat that. Ummm...maybe I have found a dieters dream! AHAHAHAHA! Yup I am not a dieter, it's a new way of life for me. Healthy and Happy. Non-processed goods go into me 90% of the time. That's what this is about. Even if I stay fat at least most of the time it's healthy, wholesome food I am eatting and not all that processed/boxed stuff. I have noticed in the past year that my skin is getting better and my nails stronger....it's great! I also have a lot more energy...well I used to before I just seem to become so busy to do anything! Oh well.

So that's what's new with me. Work is so busy right now and frustrating that I can't wait for the next 2 weeks to go by, at which time I am hoping things will calm down a bit. We shall see. This weekend I have a birthday party to go to. I don't plan on eating cake, most of the time it's too sweet anyways. Plus w/ my new grill I doubt I will eat too much of anything b/c it might be stuck in my teeth. AHAHA. Other than that not much going on. Plan on hitting the gym in the morning tomorrow and maybe the farmers market afterwards and then home for the day to clean it. Hubby wants to work on staining the deck, so maybe I will help. It should be pretty quiet.

So here's hoping I don't gain any weight this weekend. I hope to keep my head on straight and stay focused! WOOHOO!

Happy Friday!

Slow going

Things are going for me ok right now. This past weekend wasn't too bad. I didn't do much and I think that helped but also just put me in a funk. I am down a bit on the scale this week and I am hoping to get down some more next week and then I might be able to breathe and feel like I am out of the woods and finally going to see some new numbers on the scale.

This week so far has been slow and crazy! Work is driving me insane, I am tired of drama and stuff and I just wish it would stop. Oh well...I suppose it's everywheres. It was a very long Monday. My eating however was awesome! So that is great to report plus I did the gym in the evening and workout in the morning. I did a workout this morning and plan on going to the gym right after work again. However my eating hasn't been great. Ok the eating has been fine but I had a dentist appt. this morning and I was there a lot longer than expected so I ran to McD's to pick up lunch before I headed back to work and I grabbed a southwest salad w/ grilled chicken (didn't use all the dressing either) but I decided to try the new frappes they have. Urrr...the calories I found out where 550 when I got to a computer to enter it. YIKES! So that has pretty much thrown off my eating for the day. It's made me use a lot of calories....I should have known and i probably did. So dinner I am suppose to be making Oyakadon (spelling??) It's a japanese dish with chicken, egg, onion and rice. So overall it's not a unhealthy dish as long as I don't go nuts with the rice. =) I can do that I think.

I am going out Friday to see some friends that live in M.A.! It's been since last summer/fall I have seen them. i can't wait. I miss hanging out with them. We use to work together and we got along great and did things all the time but my husband and I were building a home and it was in the other direction so I needed to find a new job. They are only about 50 minutes away but it feels like a long way when trying to make plans after work and such. So Friday we are going out for dinner and drinks. WOOHOO!! So my plan is to be super good all week so I can enjoy a few drinks. Umm....so far I consider today a bust! =( I am just afraid I am going to say screw it and ruin my entire week. I keep telling myself I am doing ok. I just need to stay focused and aware of what I am doing. I can't give in.

I am going to England and Ireland and I would like to be smaller for this trip. I have had plenty of time and I have been at this weight since late last summer or early winter....I haven't dropped and it's time to drop it. I don't want to stay here and therefore it's time to stay focused and keep doing what I do. Right? RIGHT!!!

So I wanted to write today to get what is going in my head out there. It is a good way for me to release my thoughts. I don't know if my ramblings make sense but hopefully I will get better. I just have so many thoughts going at once that I tend to jump back and forth and all over the place. AAHH!!!

So I am happy that the sun is shining today, I have no cavities and it's been quiet at work. Those are good things today. Oh and I have about 10 minutes left. =) So here's to a good rest of the week. I can do this, I can be strong!!!

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!

Happy Friday! WOOHOO! I am so happy this week is done with. For some reason it just seemed never ending and I couldn't get with it. Now the weekend is finally here and my plan is to stay focused and stay on track.

I must say yesterday was bad day. I had carbs calling me all day. I have been eating less carbs just because it seems that I get in these carb routines and all I want are them so I have been cutting back on them which doesn't affect me and I am fine without them. However I guess my body says otherwise. Yesterday I had to do an errand before lunch so I ran to the grocery store after and grabbed a turkey, bacon with roasted red pepper sandwich on oat bread and then I saw them. Ultimate cinnamon buns! I used to love them! They are SOOOOOOOO BAD! I grabbed a box. I said I would eat just 1/2 of one. Well I ate 1/2 the sandwich and 1/2 a cinnamon bun but then it was still calling me so I ate the other half. Then at work I had 2 mini chocolate donuts and some maple and brown sugar shredded wheat cereal I had. OMG! I couldn't stop. So I went to the gym and did 50 minutes on the elliptical and I did different weight machines for around 20 minutes. I also did 30 minutes on the elliptical in the morning. I did 4 miles at the gym but the one at home doesn't tell me. I wore my HRM and I had a total of a little over 900 calories burnt yesterday soooooo.....I feel HORRIBLE with the way I ate but I did burn a lot. So I tried making up for it at dinner, I made zucchini spaghetti with tomato sauce. We had meatballs w/ it b/c that is what the hubby wanted. I also added peppers, mushrooms, onions, and asparagus. Well I wanted more so I had some japanese crackers and then some banana and pineapple softserve. I logged in my calories for the day and I was over 2000, I was so annoyed I just went to bed. If I stopped having days like that I would be fine. I would be where I want to be weight wise. These are the things I need to work on.

I have come a long way over the years, I no longer drink soda (maybe once a month) and I don't drink much alcohol either. My main drinks are water, tea and coffee. I only put 1 tblsp. of creamer in my huge cup of coffee now also. I eat a lot more veggies and fruits and not much processed food anymore. I know overall I am eating so much better than I use to and I am a whole lot more active. So I know I am doing good, even if the weight isn't budging. I just need to stop having really bad days and stick with it.

My goal this weekend is to not have any beer or other forms of liquid calories and to choose a decent meal at the restuarant tonight. Also, hit the gym tomorrow morning and Sunday if we aren't busy in the morning. I need to stay focused on what I am eating and not pick and snack a lot! Those are my weekend goals. I can do it! I should be able to do it. Here's hoping I do fine!

I really think writing things out is helping me a bit, it should make me accountable and if I can keep at it then I will be able to look back and be like oh yeah, that's why I didn't loose weight you moron you ate a box of cinnamon buns every week. NOT THAT I DO THAT! OH and a box would be 2240 calories! EEKKK!

Anyways here's hoping to a great and successful weekend. Healthy and focused!!!

It's a rainy, gloomy day

I do not like days like today. They make me want to just stay in bed under the warm covers. It's cold out and it's rainy. I want the sunshine and warmth. I know, I know, I can't have it all. Darn it! =) How I wish I could. If that were the case though I would be at my goal weight by now.

So far the week is going well, yesterday and last night went well so I am not complaining. The scale is not moving but that's ok, I feel like it will. I sure hope it will anyways. I am going to visit my parents tonight after work so I have no clue what dinner will be. However I must just stay strong and keep telling myself that I want to loose weight and I need to.

My husband and I have talked about starting a family and I have said after I go on vacation. Well vacation is in September and there won't be a reason not to start except for my weight. I do not feel comfortable getting pregnant at this weight. i am sure I will be fine and I eat well and I am very active but I am afraid about not being able to fit in to places and not being able to find clothes. I do want to have a child but I also want to be in the low 200's or at least mid 200's before we start trying. Oh maybe I should just go for it. Who knows.

I feel like I officially am in a habit of exercising. It's no longer hard to do, it's something I do. It is hard getting up at 5 a.m. most mornings but I do it. This morning was 40 minutes on the ellipitcal. Tomorrow I most likely will work out in the morning and then go to the gym after work. I wish the gym was closer but I am just happy to be at a gym. We do have one about 1 mile from where I work but it doesn't suit my husbands needs and since he goes before work and needs a shower afterwards he gets to pick. Of course it's cheaper for me b/c we are on a plan together and that of course is another reason we go to the same one. Well the same gym, not location wise though. Wow, I am rambling on about nothing.

It's been that kind of day. I just can't get with it and I can't keep my focus on work. I do bookkeeping and let me tell you, when you keep stay focused it's hard to work with numbers and such. Luckily I have about 1 hour to go. WOOHOO! Tomorrow is Thursday. Friday is suppose to be warmer and sunny again so I can't wait. I think it's in the low 60's today, just HORRIBLE. Haha.

So I feel like I am doing good blogging, it gives me something to go back to and read. Now if I can only figure out how to get support. I do appreciate my one follower. Thank you very much and thank you for your advice on the other post, I truly appreciate it Tammy. =) Anyways I enjoy reading other blogs and I am learning that I am pretty addicted to them and I miss it when I can't read them.

I hope tonight goes well with my eating and I hope I get a good nights rest. My cat has asthma and has been coughing and hacking at night and I feel so bad for him but I am up with him as well. Any advice? My vet gave him a shot of prednisone a few months ago but it's not something I can keep giving him. He was doing great and now the coughing and such is coming back. Poor kitty.

OK, I have rambled enough, I am going to go. Here's to a good rest of the day! =)

One good day down, 6 more to go!

I did well yesterday in the eating department and the exercise. I am happy with myself and now if I can make sure I stay that well through the week and into the weekend. I worked out for a 80 minutes on the ellipitcal yesterday and did 20 minutes strength training. My foods were good: Breakfast, I had greek yogurt w/ PB2 and a little granola mixed in. Lunch, was a organic tomato pizza burrito with spring mix salad w/ 1 tblsp. of balsamic vinigeratte. I had a luna bar before the gym and dinner was pork roast w/ carrots and spinach and a little rice on the side. I had a few small pieces of chocolate and some yogurt later in the night but that was it. I got in 14 cups of water and according to my HRM I burned around 800-900 calories yesterday. I entered my eats on Sparkpeople and it came to a total of 1770 calories for the day. So I feel good about my food yesterday. Now here's hoping it stays good!

It seems the farther in the week, the harder it is to keep track of my eating and to stay on track. I am trying to be focused this week and I am hoping that writing about it will help. Today I worked out before work and did 40 minutes on the elliptical and did used some dumbbells. I won't make it to the gym tonight because I have a hair appt. after work but that's ok. I plan on hitting the gym Thurs. and Fri. after work and then of course Sat. morning I go w/ the hubby.

I really hope that I can move the scale this week, I feel like if I can finally loose some weight it will keep me motivated and give me a boost! =)

I need to keep reminding myself that I want to loose weight before our trip to the UK in September and it will be here soon. I cannot keep giving excuses and I have to get stricter with myself. Trust me, I am not too hard on myself. All day I eat fine and healthy....for the most part, but it seems that at night after dinner I just want food, need food. I can't turn it off no matter how hard I fight it. It's not all the time but it's my most problem time of the day. So I am trying to combat that by eating something healthy/filling at night such as yogurt or fruit. The weekends are my other downfall which I am hoping I can get on track this weekend to show myself I can do it.

Here's to another good day and many more to come!!!

Trying to get in the groove of things...

I want to do a blog because I think it will help me stay accountable and keep me focused and on the right track. However it seems that I don't have time to do this. I start it and then don't continue. I read other blogs all the time and they inspire me and give me motivation and great ideas on how to reach my goals so I want to help others as well.

I have been having a problem staying focused with my weight loss. I am not gaining but I am not loosing. I have been working out more than ever but I am still not budging on the scale. The hubby says it's because I am gaining muscle, which is great but come on I used to just do 30 minutes on the elliptical 5 - 6 times a week and now I do that plus I go to the gym and do another 40-60 minutes on an elliptical and then I do strength training for another 20 minutes. I use a HRM and I average around 4000 calories burned a week so what gives??? I think my weekends are doing me in. I don't go crazy but we eat out and have a few drinks here and there and a few treats. I think the calories are a lot worse than I think. I need to get things back on track and I need to stop letting myself have all these little treats. I am obviously giving myself too many!

So I would love to loose another 20 lbs before September because that is when we are going on our trip to England and Ireland and I would love to have 55 lbs total gone. I would feel like I am accomplishing something again. That gives me a little over two months and it should be doable right? I sure hope so.

I hope to return here soon and make this a regular thing. Heres to the start of a blog that will keep me accountable and on track. I can do this!